Strive not to be a success, but to be of value. ~ Albert Einstein
I had no idea what I wanted to be when I grew up. I didn't have a goal in mind nor did I have a vision. I figured I would graduate high school, go to college and it would all fall into place. Somehow through the high school years I convinced myself that I was not smart enough for college and that I was wasting my time. I decided to leave school and got a job.
To be honest, I dreamed of being a stay at home mum to 4 or more kids but a variety of infertility and finances had a whole set of other plans for us in that department.
Over the years I coasted through jobs. I wanted more but I did not know what exactly. I knew I wanted to help people but I didn't know how.
When the company I worked for went out of business I came across an add for a teller position at the local bank. This would be an amazing opportunity for me.
I applied and to my surprise I got an interview! I was never asked about my education so I never told. I got the job. Now the panic really set in.
a.) They will find out and I'll get fired
b.) They will never find out and I can just coast as a teller forever
c.) An old teacher will call me out in front of everyone and I'll be publicly humiliated
I was promoted to a personal banker within 3 months to my very own office. I was very successful and put everything into my job with the daily fear of them finding out my dirty little secret. I didn't enjoy the job though and for the next 10 or so years I felt like a fraud. At the end of my maternity leave in 2016 I was approached for yet another promotion to Financial Advisor. I was terrified but went for it anyway. I had to think of my family now and crush the fear of being caught out.
After a couple of years I was extremely unhappy. The job itself became more and more demanding and I was having a very hard time balancing work and family. I was absolutely overwhelmed and there was little support at the time. Anxiety was taking over but I had to make this work. Who else would even hire me? I had to be grateful for what I had even though I was not happy. It wasn't about me it was about contributing to my family.
One day, out of the blue I became physically ill. I was sitting at my desk, dizzy, short on breath, stomach pains, headache and my heart was racing. I thought I was going to die. I stayed until lunchtime and with the world spinning around me I drove home. I got to the top of the stairs and my knees buckled. I couldn't breath and all I could choke out was "I just can't do this anymore"
My body had had enough, it was warning me that I had been grinding too hard for too long. I needed a break and I needed to clear the mental clutter. I needed a plan.
I dove back into the Oola program I had signed up for months earlier. This was a transformational time for me. It was clear to me that my dislike for the industry I was working for was strong, I had no passion for it. I also have a strong passion for not starving to death so I knew I did need to find new employment even if it was temporary to give me time to get a long term plan together.
I have now completed my Life Coaching certification. I am on my second job since leaving finance and am well on my way to having a successful life coaching career. My Oola score in Field (career) one year ago was a TWO! I am now a SEVEN!
How does this tie into the balance?
Family: Less Stressed and more focused and attentive when I'm home
Finance: I'm putting more focus on our finances rather than everyone else's
Fun: I have more energy and mental clarity to allow myself to enjoy new activities
Fitness: Stress levels are lower, Blood pressure is down, I have been successful at quitting smoking (I was a pack a day) I have time for sit down family dinners at a reasonable hour.
Faith: I am more relaxed and take the time to meditate
Friends: With more family time and less work time I no longer feel guilty spending time with friends. I say yes to that coffee date or walk.
Changing my career has been the biggest influence on my life than I ever imagined it would. I have big goals and dreams and know that as I continue to work on all seven areas that they are all going to become reality, it has already started.